Afraid

In less than a week, I have my annual cancer check up with oncologist, Dr. Robert Baiocchi, at the James Cancer Center in Columbus, OH. My Lymphoma has been in remission since March 2010. Though I’ve learned a lot of life lessons during these past five years, I wish I could confidentially state that I wouldn’t have changed a thing. Part of me wishes to go back to “the old normal, and the direction it was headed. Though the “new normal” is pleasant, it is not what I anticipated in my life.

When these appointments come up, I have to be careful not to play the “what if” game. Should the cancer come back what treatments am I willing to take? Dr. Baiocchi assures me the further out in remission I am; the less likely there is of a cancer occurrence.

Just like the shepherds at Jesus birth, I need a heavenly message to calm my racing thoughts. “Don’t be afraid…Glory to God in the heavenly heights. Peace to all men and women on earth who please Him.”  (Luke 2:10, 14, The Message) God’s got your back. I find it comforting that someone is making sure my life follows a master plan.

The Heavenly Father wants to hear from you. Though you may not always understand or agree with the direction He wants your life to go, it’s always for the best. Ultimately, you won’t exit this earth until  he decides that is the plan.