I
wrote to Dad, and it really helped. I have regrets with you too that I need to
let go finally. When you passed away early on the morning of 2/29/92, I so
wished I had come over to your house after my second job at Christian Armory to
help you pack. I could sense in your voice you wanted my help. Somewhere deep inside me I feel like I could
have saved your life so you could be here with us. (It’s hard for me to come to
terms that God needed you more than I did. 24 seems too young to die in my
opinion. I was 27 at the time, and Kim (your sister was 25 I think.)
I
was tired that night and was running from my own demons of loneliness. This was
before I met my wife Bobbi, and we had our daughter, Allena. I know as my
younger brother we fought occasionally. I just wanted to let you know that I
always will love you. I appreciate you taking care of my eight miscarriage
children in Heaven for me until we can get there.
What
upsets me most is all the wonderful things you have missed out on like Kim’s
daughter s (Lauren and Kellie), her dogs (Tucker and Axel), my wife (Bobbi), daughter
(Allena), and three Chihuahuas (Chico, Rosco and Lola). Your nieces would have
loved you. Kim and I try to keep your memory alive with them.
I
really never fully realized what a funny, loving, caring, and doctrinally-
sound brother you were until you were gone and your friends told me all of this
stuff. I wish I had realized it sooner. From the bottom of my heart, thanks for
everything you did for me. I greatly appreciated it.
I’m
sure by now you know that you were accepted into the Ford Asset program as an
Automotive Technician in a local dealership. Though Mom is much older now she
has never forgotten you as well all your friends and family. Robert passed away in October 2011 of COPD. (Have
you two said hello yet?) Though Mom has an active life, I hate it that she
lives alone. I think she is lonely, and gets depressed often. Remember, you are
still loved and thought of fondly as an unforgettable character by all of your
family and friends.
XXX0000XXX.
Your Older Brother
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