“I left the old me behind in order to find the new me.” (SuperVillainClub.co.uk)
Dear naïve, insecure, old version of myself,
Thank you for making me the person I am today,
and finally realizing what you deserve. It took some time, but I am the
person I have admired and always wanted to be. I remember growing up that I had
a very difficult time finding my identity in the world.
Being surrounded by so many different types
of people, I didn’t know who I was or where I belonged. So I always tried to be
the person everyone wanted me to be. After years of letting others take
advantage of me, it was finally time for a change. It didn’t happen overnight.
It took years. It’s an ongoing transition that will never stop because it’s
only making me a better version of myself.
Thank you for letting go of the people who
brought you down. It’s a natural cycle of life to let people in and let them
go. But instead of letting them go, I would hold on to people who didn’t
deserve it. Focusing so much of my time on maintaining these friendships and
relationships was exhausting.
It was difficult to be the person they wanted
me to be all the time. In order be the person I want to be, I had to let them
go. It hurt me badly to disappoint people, but they were constantly dragging me
down. I thank those negative people every day because they made me appreciate
all of the genuine people I have in my life.
Thank you for mending meaningful
relationships. Being around people who you think are your friends can make you
push the real ones away. I was so wrapped up in keeping those unimportant
relationships that I forgot about the true friends and family that had always
been around. Regardless of how long it had been since we last communicated, I
could always count on them to pick me up when I was down.
Thank you for understanding that it’s okay to
not have it all together. In high school, I would fret and worry, because I had
no idea who I was or what I wanted to do with my life. Let’s face it that no
one really has their life together. That’s the interesting thing about life. Once
you think you have everything together, you end up relearning important lessons
you didn’t get the first time around. Thank you for sticking through the hard
times and being optimistic even when the odds against you were slim to none. We
have all been through our own personal adversities, but the many ways you deal
with things truly define who you are.
There were days when I wanted to give up on
life and not do anything. I was always the person that pretended nothing was
wrong in order to satisfy everyone else’s feelings, because my issues seemed to
be a burden to everyone around me. When I would wake up in the morning and look
in the mirror, I realized I wasn’t living for myself, nor trying to better the
quality of my life. I was living for those who treated me so poorly and
extending all of my energy to please them when I should have been dealing with
my own struggles.
Thank you for reminding me every day that I
am important, beautiful, intelligent, and loved. I did not change my identity
to become stronger. I just started to care more about myself. Self worth is crucial
to me, but sometimes I overlook it. You need to love yourself and everything
will happen as God intends it to. Trust me. Thank God that who I used to be is not
who I am now. That person was has turned me into the independent, strong
individual I am proud to be today.
Love,
The best version of me
“I refuse to go back to the old me. I’m becoming a better person using
my past experiences as lessons.” (Attitude to Inspiration)[i]
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