Though I am a loyal, dependable
person (to those who know me and with my blog), I thoroughly enjoy having a
personality that is unpredictable. (Neither I or those that know me) have any
idea how I’m going to react to any situation at any given moment. I believe I’m
a lot like your favorite T.V. sitcom; you tune to see what’s going to happen.
Being a bi-polar man has a great
deal to do with my enchanting personality. I deal quickly and efficiently with
my changing life. I have to or I would push myself over the deep end
emotionally. I am constantly commenting my inner self with dialogue like: “Why
are you doing that,” “You can’t say something like that,” and “That’s so blunt.
You’re going to lose friends if you say that.”
My patient, “voice of reason” wife,
Bobbi, is getting to empty nest with the many facets of me (among them is the
crazy, assertive, sweet, and the real me). I wish I could tell you as a
bi-polar man, that I had always been the wonderful father to my daughter,
Allena, through the years. My good and bad emotions towards her seem to be intensified at times. My medication (Lithium and Trileptal)
does a great job of keeping me as normal as possible. (It clarifies my emotions
like glasses do my vision.)
I believe our three Chihuahuas even
sense there is something different about me. Rosco, Chico, and Lola are also
nicknamed “Small, Medium, and Large” because of their heights. The 13 year old
brothers, Rosco and Chico, look like traditional male Chihuahua brothers with
big ears, eyes, personalities, any tiny bodies. (Rosco connected with Allena, who is in
college now.
Chico adores his owner, Bobbi. My
dog, Lola, is the wild card. She is a female with an assertive personality. She
is not a pure breed Chihuahua like her siblings. We think her other half is Shiba
Inu (or Min Pin). Whatever she is when things get boring, she likes stir things
up with a bit of excessant barking. It sounds like a canine version of me.
Doesn’t it? My clue that it’s time for angry Robert needs to go is when Lola
runs to hide somewhere in our tri-level split home.
The purpose of this post is not to
make you feel sorry for me (and my family) for living with me. Rejoice in who
you are. Get help if you need it (medicine or counseling). Your heavenly Father
only made one you with your unique personality for a reason. You are His unique
child, and He cherishes you.
Don’t change yourselves to be like the people of this world,
but let God change you inside with a new way of thinking. Then you will be able
to understand and accept what God wants for you. You will be able to know what
is good and pleasing to him and what is perfect. (Romans 12:2, ERV)
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| Chico, Lola, and Rosco (left to right) |
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