Tuesday, January 9, 2018

Unconditionally Valued by Robert Kinker (Installment One)


"Hello, how are you doing?"  in Bahasa Indonesian is "Halo, apa kabar?" My 8 AM journalism class starts soon at the Jakarta Mission School on Java. I’m here due to a six months ago I took a sabbatical from my newspaper job in Oaksdale.

 

Due to the growing political unrest in this country, Ravena feared for our daughter’s life. She took herself and Deanna, our one-year-old daughter and the joy of my life, to stay with her parents in the states. I keep remembering the relatively short time we were a whole, happy family, and I was father to Deanna. It still amazes me how Ravena and I could give birth to something so perfect and beautiful. I miss them so much.

 

How could I ever forget our first Christmas together as a family? It was magical. The first time Deanna walked to me made me feel like I’d won some major award. Deanna's eye’s and brain are so alert. Next to her mom and me she loves her little cloth doll, Bubbles. For the first time in my life, I know what true loneliness is. It’s being separated from the ones you love.

 

I bet you’re wondering how I got from Oaksdale to a tiny island in Indonesia. It’s a fascinating story. This morning there’s a nice breeze blowing through the bamboo screens of my little thatched-roof home. It's been so hot and humid in Jakarta this whole week. The temperature has been well over the hundred degree mark by mid afternoon. Frequently, rains will cool things down a bit. I hope there's not a flat on my becak (bicycle rickshaw), or I'll never make it to work on time.



Now back to the subject at hand.  Around a year and a half ago, Rev. Eduin Lapardo came to First Baptist Church of Oaksdale, and talked about his mission and school in Java. He was in dire need of instructors in their school, and helpers for the mission. I wondered if God was calling me to fulfill a promise I’d made during my sophomore year of college.



At the age of thirty-two, God finally took me up on my vow. After praying, studying the country of Indonesia, and e-mailing back and forth with Eduin, God burdened me to take my talent to the mission field. Miraculously, God provided the mission board and churches to back me up. For right now, my broken spirit is content doing the Lord's will and leaving my personal safety in His strong hands.



Well, that's my story. There really is nothing better than a bowl of fresh coconut, pineapple, and papaya fruit salad to get you going in the morning.  I must remember to thank Eduin’s wife, Louisa, for her kindness in providing it.  The people at the mission treat me so well. The people of this country are genuinely poor. (Some are practically naked, homeless, and live in cardboard shanties on the street.)

 

Here are memories I know (or have been told) that have made me who I am today. I hope you will enjoy my ramblings.  My parents, Marjorie Luann Kincaid and Charlton Atlas Philman grew up thousands of miles away from each other. Dad's roots dug deep into the red clay soil of Cherry Bottom Grove, Georgia. Mom was from Devonia, Colorado.  My twenty-two year-old Dad and twenty-three Mom were introduced by a friend of mom’s.

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Three years later it happened. On that day, tiny drops of rain pattered on the tin roof of the Denver Friends Fellowship.  It was June 12 (three years before I came into the picture), and Marjorie had hoped for a wedding day with lots of sunshine. Only fifteen minutes remained until she became Mrs. Charlton Philman. This was a dream come true. Quickly, her attendants helped her slip into a street-length wedding dress made of a pure ivory-colored lacey nylon-net fabric and a pearl necklace to match. Marjorie hoped Char would be speechless for once in his life.



Minutes later, her special moment arrived. With her right hand tightly in her father's arm, Marjorie daintily proceeded down the aisle to the triumphant brass sounds of Jeremiah Clarke's "Trumpet Voluntary." The fragrant smell of white gladiolas tickled her nose.  Beneath her veil, she started to cry. This had to be the happiest day of her life.



“He's such a handsome man," she thought as she looked down the aisle at Charlton Philman. "I know Char loves me with all of his heart. What just fell down into my face? I knew I should have used more bobby pins and hairspray. I got this thing stuck together with a wish and a prayer.

 

Charlton Philman looked at the woman that was soon to become his wife.

"Wow! Marjorie looks stunning. I definitely got the prettiest sister of the Kincaid bunch. I can't believe I'm actually getting married. I wish my stomach would stop growling because I’m hungry. What I had for breakfast just wasn’t enough."



After the soloist sang "I Love You Truly" and as the pastor gave his wedding sermon, Marjorie's love dreams dramatically changed to thoughts of the life in a vast blue ocean.



My husband-to-be smells like something from the sea. Don't tell me I'm marrying a fish sandwich for a husband."



Char looked at his soon-to-be wife with utter embarrassment, he was sure she had smelled his shirt.  How was he ever going to live this down?



Char’s thoughts raced, "Never again in my life will I buy a foreign-made shirt. Why would anyone want to pack dress shirts and fish together in the same crate? Obviously, this shirt wasn't such a bargain after all. Mom couldn’t get the fishy smell out no matter what home remedies she tried.”

 

Church (and my faith in God) has always been an important part of my life. The Oaksdale mayor, Will Denton, is also the pastor of my church, First Baptist Church of Oaksdale. I have a lifetime of unique memories as I grew up in a church environment. The pastor’s daughter, Lyna, is my best friend. Along with the pastor’s wife, Jo, the church began in an abandon peanut factory.

 

 On a cold Sunday morning in early February, Baptist Church of Oaksdale (FBC) began its first services. By chance, our family attended FBC's very first Sunday service. I was only three. We were late to our regular church, and decided to try something new instead. (That decision by my parents changed my life.) The church was First Baptist Church of Oaksdale.

 

FBC started out with a small congregation (25 adults, 15 teens, 5 children, and 5 babies). Before they realized it, the church’s meager offerings, prayer, and a miracle donation from the Blakely Dry Cleaning chain helped FBC do an extensive remodeling. All former vestiges of its past were removed, and the building took on its new life as a house of worship.

 

When we were second graders, Lye Denton and I loved playing church in the basement of our home. Bossy Lye always had to be the pastor. Being agreeable most of the time, I was put in charge of leading the invisible choir, and congregation in singing the only song Lye and I could remember, “Jesus Loves Me.”

Being the choir director meant I got to impersonate what I saw Lyna’s mother doing in adult church. For me this translated into flapping my arms like some great bird about to take off in flight. Lyna would try to improvise on her father’s rather meek style of preaching by not screaming, pounding the top of our crate pulpit, and telling the invisible congregation and choir to repent of giving their children the vegetable of the week he disliked.

    

Prayer time in our Sunday school class was a lesson for Jo in patience and trying to not to laugh at some of the things that came out of our mouth. My friend, Cory, had a great prayer request that was typical of the kind of honest prayer concerns our class of boys and girls sent up to God in Heaven. "Pray my daddy will stop taking his false teeth out in church, and letting off smelly stinkers in the middle of pastor’s preaching."

 

There was a dramatic change in my life around the fourth grade. I accepted Jesus into my heart as my Savior. No longer was He a fond memory of a cute Baby at Christmas, or Someone in the sky I murmured my daily prayer s to. He’d now become a real person I could share my life with. Jesus was ticket only way to Heaven when I one day passed from this world to the next.

 

Gossiping is not a mouth disease prone only to women. Men can fall victim to it also. In this digital age, half-truths can be spread quickly if one is not careful. My first painful lesson in gossiping happened in sixth grade at Oaksdale Middle School. Halona Lightfoot was my first acquaintance with an American Indian teacher.  

 

Mrs. Lightfoot was a woman in her mid fifties who should have retired years before I entered sixth grade. Her perpetually scowling tan face and single graying hair braid reached to her waist. Halona smiled so rarely that when she did it reminded me of a wilting potted geranium plant. Mrs. Lightfoot and I were not the best of friends. I always felt she was out to make my life miserable in school. When the opportunity came one afternoon to engage in spreading a juicy story about her, I jumped to the call of duty.



"Class, your math assignment for homework tonight will be page sixty in

your math book, problems 1-25. Show all your work and double check your answers for accuracy. Class dismissed. The school bell protested loudly, and quickly relieved us of spending any more time in this place.



As I walked out of class, the large hands of my friend and soccer team cohort, Alex Brice, grabbed me and pulled me to the side of his locker.



"Alex, would you stop doing that! You almost made me pee my pants. I thought that pushy Tiffany Langston was grabbing me to try to kiss me again."



“Sorry, Danny, but did you hear the latest news?"



"Wait a minute; is this another one of your stories that's going to get me in trouble?"



"Man, I swear this is the whole truth. Mrs. Lightfoot is having an affair with the art teacher, Mr. Garland."



My mouth opened in astonishment; Alex said this was the truth. I should believe him this time.



"Aren't they both married? There's a twenty-year age difference between Mrs. Lightfoot and Mr. Garland. What could they possibly see in each other?"



“How can you know anything about Mrs. Lightfoot’s part with those thick glasses she wears," Alex chided.



In the next few weeks, news of the supposed affair between Halona Lightfoot and Lance Garland spread like a forest fire throughout Oaksdale Middle School.  The rumor I'd willingly told to others hit me square in the face one Friday afternoon. Mrs. Lightfoot wasn't acting like herself. She acted depressed and looked tired. I felt kind of bad for her.



The class plodded through Thursday's math homework, and then the teacher let out a bombshell.



"Recently, there have been lots of rumors going around this school about Mr. Garland and me. Mr. Garland and I are not having an affair. We are both married, and love our spouses too much to do that. For the good of this school’s name, I have decided to transfer to Eagle Memorial High School as a geometry teacher. Your substitute teacher will arrive Monday. She will be here with you until the end of the school year."

Mrs. Lightfoot then wiped the tears from her eyes that were starting up, dismissed us, and walked briskly from the room. I didn't know about the rest of the students, but I felt like a jerk. I wanted to wring Alex's neck for lying to me. I wondered whom he'd heard his news from. Somehow, I had to make things right with this teacher. I’d helped to make this awful thing happen.



That Saturday, I rode my bike to Mrs. Lightfoot's house at 818 South Beele Avenue, and knocked on the door.  Out of curiosity, I’d looked Mrs. Lightfoot’s address up on the Internet. Halona opened the door, and welcomed me in. She offered me some tea and cake, and explained her husband was out playing golf on this beautiful, sunny day.



"Mrs. Lightfoot, will you accept my apology for helping to spread that awful rumor around about you and Mr. Garland?"



"Danny, of course, I will. You have a very good heart to come here and say this. Listen, I've never been a quitter in life. I do know when it’s time to back out of a bad situation with some respect and dignity intact. Yesterday was the time to do that.”

 

 Halona and I talked for about another hour. She wasn't as horrid as I thought she was. Maybe we could become good friends out of this whole mess. She invited me to come back for another visit someday and meet her husband, the veterinarian.  

 

As a middle school guy, I learned an important lesson with Halona about my words. It’s impossible to retrieve what’s spoken. Today I always remember the cost of my words. If I believe something’s not true, I either don’t say it, or I to go the person the rumors is about and find out what’s truth.

 
This book comes to an end with installment two.       

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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