I want to say thank you for every
long talk you had with me about school, and for always being interested in my
ideas and opinions. I miss that more than anything about you. The world is too
big and too loud, and you were big and loud but you listened. You understood
from having a daughter of your own that because the world is too big and too
loud that to a young girl having a place to discuss what she thought made a
difference. You made a difference to me. You gave me the confidence to use my
voice, to learn my facts, and speak my truth.
I also want to thank you for making my grandmother and my family so happy, so full of laughter. I can't remember many times that I entered Grandma's house and there wasn't laughter when you were there. You had that smirk that made people laugh just by looking at it that coupled with your bad jokes always did the trick. I miss that too, the way Grandma's eyes used to light up when you did something funny. I've tried to pick up the bad joke mantle for you, but I just don't think it works as well as it did when you told them. You inspired so much laughter, happiness, and fun everywhere you went, and it breaks my heart to see that missing now.
I think that's where the biggest hole is now not in the empty place where you used to sit or the spot where your car used to be parked in the driveway, but you're missing in my laughter. Thank you for those times where laughing was more prominent than breathing, and for the times when our smiles were brighter than the shine on your forehead (that joke is for you, I know you're laughing at it in Heaven).
There's one more thing I want to thank you for, thank you for being a part of our family. Thank you for being my grandfather, thank you for being Grandma's fiancée, and thank you for being our Ed. I know you're happy and safe where you are that you aren't sick or hurting anymore, and I'm thankful for that. You hated staying still. I think that's why you and Grandma loved each other so much. We will watch out for Grandma. I know you'd worry about that, but we've got it. You had us, and we're all so grateful to have had you too.
I guess that's everything. Thank you for being such a big part of my life. I know I will see you again. Oh one last thing, I’m taking good care of your motorcycle, he loves it as much as you did. Love you Ed, see you soon. Let’s go for a ride in Heaven.
Hugs and Kisses,
Savannah
Your Granddaughter
“Grandfathers do have
a special place in the lives of their children's children. They can delight and
play with them and even indulge them in ways that they did not indulge their
own children. Grandfather knows that after the fun and games are over with his
adorable grandchildren he can return to the quiet of his own home and
peacefully reflect on this phenomenon of fatherhood.” (Alvin F. Poussaint)[i]
[i] Adapted from: “An Open Letter to my
Grandfather” by Savannah Aichem
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